no wise words gonna stop the bleeding

I’m loosing it.

I’m not me anymore. 

hmm

everything seems like its coming together now. at least i hope it is.

stalion

a flame runs within her  you could see it in her eyes theres something lying inside her ready to brake through. a girl who’s untamed who could never be bound she’s got a heart of lightning some souls would call it frightening she’s the stalion a wild one that cant be broken, she’ll keep running until she’s free until that last breathe escapes her lungs she’s a stalion a wild one that cant be shattered who didnt care about anything, nothing ever matterd, she dosnt know where she’s going but she knows where she’s at. a girl with a dream she plans to chase running faster and faster to get to the place. . she’s a wild one that cant be broken, she’ll keep running with words unspoken. 

im a bird that feels like its lost its wings.

Everytime i try to write a poem, i go blank. it’s like my mind has nothing there no inspiration at all and i can’t write anything because i have nothing to write. what’s happening to me? usally i always have an inspiration or a feeling that makes me what to write a poem about something but everything i put down i end up erasing. its like im a bird who’s got its wings caught off for no reson at all and everytime it trys to fly it falls..the thing i love to do more then anything is write poems and i can no longer do that.

ugh

I dont know what to do anymore, i feel like were on an edge of a cliff slowly slipping off and im scared and this fucking kid has been trying to ruin our relationship for as long as weve been together and im so fucking tired of it. ive been having nightmares every single night and ive been waking up in tears every single morning! i dont know what to do anymore it feels as if my deppresion is coming back. 

god help me. 

Virtual School

Is BULLPOOPIE! i hate it.

Growing up. (Its funny how) to “the circle”

Its so funny how in only two years things can change SO quickly! its funny how it only seems like yesterday when we were all hanging out at the mall walking around laughing at the stupid asswhole security guy kicking us out. its funny how after eighth grade everyone slowly slipped away from one another even the best of friends. its funny how just two years ago we were all in a backyard smoking pot and pretending like we were all on the phone with eachother when we were right next to eachother its funny how only two years ago we were all sitting behind publix in a clubhouse we made laughing at every single thing. its funny how we were a great big family and now some of us barley ever talk or see eachother or get along. its funny how some of us hate one another. sometimes i wish i could go back to the year of 2007 when every one got along and we were a one big family that could always count on one another when our own family’s didnt accept us or when our own family couldnt take care of us or when our own family’s put us down and exspected us to be perfect. thats what brought us all together because we felt like we didnt belong at home like there was something missing in our lifes and so we made a family of our own “the circle” :D. I will never forget any of the pepole in it and i miss that family deeply but we all grew up so much and now its time to move on from it all. :D i miss you guys and ill always love you guys no matter what!

That family will always have a place in my heart.

Myspace

Why does myspace have to be so addicting? its like a drug to teenagers because theres nothing else to do so we go on myspace and then we get hooked in the snap of a finger. You know i think about deleting my myspace but i’d problley go through withdraws. What would i do with my freetime? What would we do if we didnt have internet at all? ahh i wonder….but these questions will go unanswerd.